Snatches of sleep during the very early hours of a new day finally ended a little before 6. Pete's breathing has changed again, this time to soft but regular gasps of oxygen. Through the night his temperature fluctuated between normal to fever level, reaching at one point a high of 105, has settled back down to near normal for the time being.
The TV is on in his room, the volume well down, but across the bottom of the screen scrolls the ticker tape announcing the latest news. A call for Peace had been foremost on Pete's mind, especially in recent days, whether referencing the microcosm of his immediate surroundings or immensity of the world outside, for he is and always has been a peacemaker and calming influence.
Be strong enough to put aside fears and insecurities to take hold of the olive branch, either in acceptance or offering. That's what Pete would want.
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May Pete find the peace that passes all understanding!! The peace provided by the loving arms of our Lord. God Bless all of you during this difficult journey.
ReplyDeleteIt is as a mother that I most identify with your blog. i cannot speak of the pain or sadness you must have but I can relate to loving someone so much that you put your own selfishness and desire aside for that of a child. As I know by your blog that you would do anything to keep your son on this earth- really in any way shape or form-this now has been surpassed by your unconditional love for him. The gift of freedom that you have granted him at this point is the bravest of any task you have ever faced as a parent. While I am sure that his suffering is painful to witness, it is Pete's journey and process of letting go that he experiences in these last days. He is preparing himself for the same pain of letting go that you all are dealing with.
ReplyDeleteAs a mom, I cry for you but mostly, am inspired to know that in the wake of any such similar circumstance there is strength from a mother's heart. Your blogging has proven that with each entry. Pete's suffering and ultimate death is not in vein for you have taught many such important lessons- even to this stranger.
Even though we have never met, I had come across this blog and your story and it has impacted my life- proof that we are all connected in one way or another.
As your journey comes to an end, hold your head high and let your heavy heart turn to all of the wonderful memories that you have as a family. Pete will be waiting for you to smile at his memory. May God bless you during this difficult time. Know that there are prayers of strength and peace sent to you and your family.
I will continue to check in on Pete's progress and will share his story which is full of lessons of life and love, bravery and power.